Well, hello again; its me. I have returned from the depression that happens when you get re-organized unexpectedly. There is a light at the end of that tunnel, you just have to crawl out from under the rock to see it. I now have all the time in the world to pursue all the dreams I dreamed, only with a lot less
moola.
I was utterly amazed how much of my persona was my job. I measured everything on the position I had at work. It decided who I could associate with, and when I had leisure time (are you kidding?) how I dressed, what I said, and didn't say.
I realize now it was a terribly good thing for me. I know now that I abandoned everything that I love to do, and everyone I love to be with, in search of corporate approval. That is sick, and I know I am not the only one with this sickness.
I have found another cause to devote my life to, it is the pursuit of individuality, creativity, and joy in work. Whatever I do from now on has got to follow my new mantra. The world is calling me. I do have International Skype too, call me.
I have found a new start up company that is allowing me to learn as I go, helping them is helping me. The movement to this training mode has helped me relearning the art of negotiation, constant communication and being very creative in art displays, retail sales logic and face to face customer service. No big paychecks I am an intern, but it has the biggest return for the time; self appreciation and a night of interrupted sleep without stress wake ups all night long.
Well, I am going to make designs with my Cricut for the front windows letting the customers know at a glance what kind of activities they can perform comfortably in our hi tech clothing.
I appreciate this.
Denise
